I really don't care for the people I've depended on for companionship. I see how many one way relationships I fostered and nurtured out of a gregarious need and fear of lonliness. I listened to Casey Treat after church this morning about relationships and he was talking right to me, I only cringe on good messages when they insist Jesus was more than an anachronistic, altruistic man who found "a" or "the" path. I feel that Jesus, Buddha and Muhammad all had the same message for different parts of the planet...they kind of proclaimed messiah-hood (not buddha), after starving themselves in a desert; did they hear of hallucinations in the olden days? Not being sacrilegious but Acharya S has a great take on the "Sun of God" which was very enlightening when you want to get past feeling guilty about not believing the bible is the consecrated Word. In fact, why don't people recognize the so-called Pagan nature of religion. Winter Solstice vs Christmas, gargoyles on churches. Emperor Constantine set up a council of 12, when his Roman government was losing control to (God Forbid) Witches and Pagan worship.  He ordered them to deify that guy they crucified and mix up history. pagan symbols received a sort of "gestalt flip", they vilified women, found a way to get money, set up laws supposedly above their own and effectively put a celestial policeman on everyone's shoulder to mind their egos/devils! Then they use this brilliance to enrich, conquer and turn the matriarchy so well detailed in "When God was a Woman" and Wha-La; we still are ruled by a oversexed, paedophiliac, hedonistic oligarchy or greedy men!   Tah-Dah! (I love playing Philosopher)